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I haven't blogged in a gazillion years. Well, not that long, maybe bout one week?
Life's distressing but I'm trynna keep up w it.
Seriously, I've been skipping school quite abit.
I know it's just my form of escape, but I'm just too scared.
Scared of what, you may ask.
Everything, the people & the consequences.
Sometimes I really feel that I'm taking up too much stuff.
Like as if I'm not busy enough, I actually went to join TPJC editorial team.
But at least it's fun, have my goodie pamela w me inside.
It ain't that bad afterall, right?
Lying to yourself makes you feel better, I'm smiling right now.
But wells, ILY pamm :]


I didn't go to school today, it wasn't faked alright.
I woke up at like 6.30 and was feeling fucking nauseous, like fuck.
Mummy asked me not to go to school, and i (like duh) happily obliged.
Called best & she was studying for her exam so well didnt go w me.
So I called A & despite having an exam the next day,
He went w me to the polyclinic.
Like seriously, how sweet is that?
I'm not making any comparisons here though, altho it just shows alot.
& omg something happened, and I'm officially the luckiest girl of the day.
(yesterday actually, it's thurs already :[ )
We walked to Marine Parade Library whilst waiting,
cos mummy asked me to help her return a book.
Then since it was like 11 patients waiting, we went to use the comp.
Then, church by tpain plays and tadah, "QNO 2262 PLEASE RETURN...."
I was like, oh fuck why so fast.
So we rushed back, and at the doorstep of the clinic,
I started fumbling for my wallet, and lo and behold,
IT FUCKING WASN'T THERE.
Half walked and ran back to the library & IT WAS STILL THERE.
LIKE AWESOME-O :] I'm so happy :)

A, thank you for being there. I love you, lalalalala.

my friend :]

Sorry.


When I went home, I just surfed the net for super long,
and watched half of ps. i love you.
It's either so fucking awesome or I'm just over emotional.
Cos it got me sobbing right from the start.
I love it.
One part I hated was, why the fuck did the guy have to die.
I know that's the point of the whole story.
But, NOOOOOOOOOOOO.
If my lover just died like that I'd be behind him at the gates in minutes.
Seriously.
It makes me so sad, just the thought of it.
You know I'd do that for you?
But after watching the half of it, I have officially decided.
To ditch you & marry and irish man.
Seriously, they're so fucking sexy,
I want him to sing to me everyday :]
Okay, fantasies again. HAHAHAHA. Oh wells, fantasies make us all happy,
don't they?


Which reminds me.

LOVE,
I'm sorry.
It's my fault.
It's so ironic what I've said in the earlier parts.
Cos I'm so sorry, I can't do it no more.
It makes me sad and tired.
I'm sorry I couldn't reciprocate anything earlier,
I really am.
It's all too late, is it?
Life's bout giving and taking.
I think I've had enough of you to make me smile this way,
it's time I let you go.
You're my secret, one that I'll always keep close to my heart.
We`ll see, alright?
After promos, when all priorities are gone.
Somehow I feel like I have to let you go.
Why do you make me feel this way.
When all my thoughts ponder on you, the way no one knows.
When someone asks me why I look so happy,
my mind just flies straight back toyour face again.
& again and again and again. repeatedly. w/o any stoppage.
It's like seeing you at every road junction,
where every single car has to stop for us.
How ironic can I get?
I just thought you should know,
it's not that I dont love you.
It's circumstances.
Sorry, infinity times.
If anything will tell, it's time.
Let's wait.
& I will give you the time you need.
Oh not really, only until after promos.
Long enough?
By then, if I don`t feel nothing,
I'm leaving forever, further than ever.
Okay?
deal
It'ssealed with us.



VA VA VOOM, such a long day.
I just finished watching soccer, argentina vs serbia.
Argentina won 2-0, wheee :]
But I can't hep but say the referee was a lil biased.
The first goal was from a penalty, well deserved.
Then he gave another penalty to argentina in the second half.
Which Di Maria machiam bodoh aim so near to where the keeper as standing.
Eh, even I could have saved it, HAHA.
Then the referee gave another, which I felt was not justified.
Even though I am an Argentinia supporter.
It's like, dang, why you don't score, now I have to give lame excuse to give another.
Wells, fucker Di Maria kicked it at the same spot again.
Keeper saved it again, no difference, lalala.
The second goal was from an awesome-o free kick, curled right into the net.
Nice one.
Oh yeah anyways, the referee gave two yellow cards to No.11 of Serbia.
The first time cos he was disrespectful and the second cos he fouled.
So red card, bye no.11.
Good game, awful referee.
Which is ironic since the referee makes the whole match possible.
AH FUCK IT.
I HAVENT DONE LIT ASSIGNMENT.
& I'm feeling nauseous.
Okay stop thinking I'm pregnant cos if I were I should have given birth by now.
Stupid doctor asked me if I'm sexually active, I went LOL in her face & said no.
She went, "ARE YOU SURE?"
Damn you la dey.
Eh the air con so fucking cold I wish I could hug you :(


Shit I feel so sick, maybe I'm really dying, how?
Sometimes I really wish I would be diagnosed w some terminal disease,
then just depart this world.
No one would miss me anyways.
I`ve always hoped for this funeral, where I'll request in advance,
for all the hottest club hits to be blasted.
I'll be dancing along in my coffin :]
If there's space lor.
Likefuck, that day Bryan totally cursed me to die.
HAHAHA.
Bryan : Have you done GP homework?
Me: Erm...... How bout no?
Bryan : Econs?
Me: I'm screwed right.
Bryan : Yeah, so have you bought your coffin? Did you pay the deposit or the full amount? I'll attend your funeral:]

Like omg, he was so gleeful bout me dying.
HAHAHA.
But I know he was joking, he's too nice to be evil.
I sincerely hope.
Thanks for the encouragement anyways :]


Oh this is so fucking random, who wants to see my latest obsession?
NOOOOO, it's not Michael Phelps boys.
But stop insulting the poor guy anws, funnnnny.
I texted Bryan this morning when he won his fourth gold medal.
He replied, "Wow cool.. Good for ol' dumbo."
Seriously, his ears weren't his fault.
Okay HAHA, I'm laughing.
Back to my latest obsession.
The name's Alexander Pato, from the Brazil footy team.
Hot bodoh.

Fucking hot, like seriously.
I wanna marry him, vbiwjrnviebrnirubviuetbnouvtr.
Oh wait, I thought I wanted an Irish. PFFT.
Too many hot foreign men, none locally, UNFORTUNATELY.
That's why after A's I'm flying off. hopefully.
I'm so gonna dream of him tonight :]
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SOOOO HOTTTT.
SHEESH.


Alrighty, write damn long already can?
But no class post yet.
I'm so damn sorry, seriously.
I think I only can write after promos.
Now they're all gonna stone me to death.
Wells, I'm so sad just thinking how limited our time is.
I'm not sad enough yet, i guess.
Cos you can only really feel the pain when something's REALLY gone.
Rahhhhh.


Shall end of with a song, it really touched me.
Love Remains the Same by Gavin Rossdale :]


A thousand times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me wanna run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But,love remains the same

I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play

We - we could have had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

I, oh I,
I wish this could last forever
I, oh I,
as if this could last forever

Love remains the same,
Love remains the same.




Goodnight everyone,
be good children.

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