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11:09 PM
I didn't expect that from you, you just crushed the opinion I had of you at first.
Of course you won't feel bad, you don't know how to.
I won't regret befriending you, why, you ask.
I saw your true colours, I gained something out of it.
This'll be the one mistake I won't ever regret.

I will not deny the impact the truth had on me.
It wasn't just anger, I don't even know exactly what it was.
Sadness? Disappointment?
I don't know, just that I feel you have emptied a part of me.
The part that acccepts people for who they are & the one that trusted.
It's gone, are you happy now?

You wouldn't care what I thought of you, of course, but I'm gonna say it anws.
YOU, are so much less than what you portray yourself as.
You think you're a perfectionist so apparently you think your decisions &
everything you say is naturally justified. What a loser, really.
I never thought I would ever say that about you.
How funny can I get, let me show you.
I thought you were awesome, an amazing friend.
Because you were there for me in times of desperation,
and I am extremely tempted to use a vulgarity on you now.
But no, I'm being considerate for my dear muslim friends.

Yes, I know how to think for others, unlike you.
Your so called perfect state of mind is just a shallow one.
So shallow that anything ANYONE says can sway you.
The softest whisper at your ear makes you arch your ears.
You translate everything others think into your own thoughts.
That's how deep you go, not very deep apparently.
Stop thinking that you're some perfectionist,
or you'll die from trying to be perfect, something you can never attain.
I sound mean, yes I know.
Even as I type this out I'm thinking why do I want to be so harsh.
Maybe, just maybe. It's because it's not gonna have any impact on you anws,
I just need to let it all out.
I think I'm disgusting because I just cried over you half an hour ago.
Like, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Let me pose you the most complex question you would have ever been faced with.
WHY?
Difficult, ain't it, trying to figure yourself out when all along you thought you knew yourself oh-so-well.
It's okay, you have the rest of your life to figure it out.
I'll just take my leave first ayt?
:]


p.s Nolite te bastardes carborundorum, I've memorised it,
cos now I'm needing it.
Know what it means?
-Don't let the bastards grind you down.

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