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OKAY, i have been so inactive uh. Basically cos i'm always too lazy to blog even when i'm online. Well, most of my classmates have a blog eh. And i have like two? Cos of lj uh. So i decided to start all over again and imma link them :)

So we've been working on our history proj etitled 'the opera'.Yeah okay laugh, laugh and laugh again. Now STOP. We have to sing most of the parts of the presentation. Okayla,it's actually real ass fun and everyone's so cute except for one person, UGH.
In alphabetical order, Deanna, Gena, Eunice and Li Wei :) Deanna's the momma, and she's been so upset that her baby has to be speared. HAHA. Gena's the farmer who eventually joins the army, Eunice is the student, Li Wei is the jap commander (and his evil laugh is super funny okay). Well, I'm the narrator cum British soldier cum some other parts. And I do hope we have a blast with this, it means alot to all of us.


As happy as I sound, I am prolly experiencing one of the toughest times of my life an everything is so fucked.I just can't be alone or I'll start crying and thats when i need you so fucking bad, you don't see that. There's just something about you, when I'm talking to you on the phone. It's just, I feel I can pretend nothing else is happening. Fuck. I wish I never talked to you, I wish nothing ever happened. Cos I really don't want to fall again. Cos this time if you're gone who am I gonna run to?


me : Or I'll just grab you and run away :)
<3 : Either way...
me : Either way I'd feel better than what I'm feeling now.
<3 : Cause I'm there?
me : Yeah.


Okay I was kinda high that night uh cos I jut came back from drinking breezers at the bus stop. Wtf right, like some bangla or ah tiong. Lol.
Thing is, I don't know how I feel. I jut don't know how I should get used to life w/o you. Really, what will I do? I fucking don't know.


I'm losing everyone, soon I'll lose myself.

(would i have lost her if i went to poly, i doubt it)





Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

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