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1:40 PM
I've been praying. For many things to get better. And I know You will find a way for me, I know that if I fall You'll be there to put me right back on my feet.Have I been studying enough? HAAH NO. I keep slacking in the day, and studying late into the night and it has really been taking its toll. The flu has lasted for like one week plus? Somehow I keep hoping that 'some virus' (hehe) will strike me cause anyway my immunity should be quite low due to my bad bad bad asthma so then I won't have to take Mid Years. :) But I guess it won't happen cause the more i want to run away from something, the more I know You would want me to face up to it. And yeah, life's been questioning me lately, on so much.
I ponder and wonder (omg me is totally a poet). Like what I did wrong such that you would treat me this way. I know it's quite dumb but I'm just like that. I probably will continue thinking and wondering why you are such a f*CKING asshole and why you can continue being happy when you're like that. It's plain ridiculous and all my friends think I'm so spastic for having this reminiscent attitude towards you. Yes, I greatly miss the times when we were in sync. I totally miss the late night phone calls like crazy and everything else, even the smallest details. Why am I like that now? It's not like I was in love with you or whatsoever (right?). Yeah I wasn't. But from the start of this year I have become such that I am so afraid of losing anymore friends, anymore people that I love. Argh f it really, if God wanted you to stay by my side, you would have.
Ok wtf my sister's boyfriend went to complain to my sis that he saw me outside and I wasn't studying. Like wtf la, you were sitting so far away don't come and talk rubbish. I study more than your girlfriend la please. Smart then big f*ck? Bloody hell, shut your mouth la. While I was studying there, the both of you were gallavanting somewhere. So just because you don't dare to tell your girlfriend off for not studying, don't direct your verbal vomit at me. K THX BYE.
KEKE. That's put aside. Well I am going back to studying now. I really hope for time to fly though I need more time to study. After exams then hehehe I want to play and slack and omg everything else. I also need to change my blogskin I've been so lazy and so it's just that ugly template. But yet I can't shop too much must save moneyyyy cause I'm going to MILAN at the end of the year teehee. AND YAY i'll be going to BARCELONA :D WOOHOO I totally need to cut spending so I can splurge more there. I'll be leaving on the 13th of December I fink for like three weeks. 13th is like one week after my birthday and I'm still contemplating whether I should celebrate my 18th birthday like in bigger fashion or just keep things simple. Keep things simple can save money hahaha. 21st birthday more important right? Omg I realised how old I am now eh. In the past everytime I see those hot guys on telly like those 16 17 years old type I'd tell my mom and sisters that I'm gonna marry the fella. Now I realise that I'm older than most of them, omg so saddening :(:(:(:( Even those in the same school year as me now are a year younger oh wellzxx. NEH MIND, true love will come. HAHA SO CORNY. YOU NEVER KNOW LASTER NEXT YEAR I CALL AND SAY IM NOT COMING BACK FROM EUROPE CAUSE I'M MARRIED? HAHAHHAHA OMG I'M SO FULL OF CRAPZZZZ.
OMG STUDY STUDY KEKE LOVE LOVE BYE BYE PLEASE TAKE CARE EVERYONE DON'T FALL SICK <3
PRAY.PRAY.PRAY.
